Weak

[Nathaniel]

I have not been feeling well for a few days. Please pray for me. I am exhausted mentally, physically and spiritually.. Though kinda better for now.

While making my calling and election sure my faith has been weak up and down the past few days. The first day I was convicted by the first of 1st John as I don't do as I ought to.. However I was pretty much alright the 1st day but, I listened to a sermon series on 1st John the next day. and I forgot to look by faith and got caught up in sight which was accompanied by a horrible pain that went from stomach to my heart which included and mental and physically exhaustion. However I recovered thanks to the Lord before I went to bed. But when I woke up the third day my pains started again really bad and it brought up the tons of doubt. I kept for faith for awhile but I broke.. and I doubted horribly, even thought I wasn't saved.. It was absolutely horrible.. However my faith returned right before bed again and I was full of joy.. Well today I was supposed to go somewhere. I was happy and joyful in faith and I don't believe I was doubting. There came the pain again.. I knew something wasn't right because I thought that it was from the conviction and then the doubt.. I had associated the pain with the doubting and the conviction from first John so the doubts came with the pain.. However I was okay I was thinking of scripture and went to the Doctor. I have been having nose bleeds for the longest time at least 1 a day for awhile.. Apparently I have some sort of infection so they gave me an antibiotic But not really sure where the stomach pain is from. However I have been nauseated today too. But every time the pain starts up the doubt tries to start. It stayed away for awhile but.. I had some trouble again with doubts today too. However I am doing alright now the Lord answered my prayers again. He is so merciful.. I truly do not deserve it.. The stomach problem is still here but not as intense at the moment.. The pain and fatigue alone is horrible.. But the doubt on top.. However my doubt it gone for now at least for the most part if not all. I am having trouble telling because of the pain though it is lessened right now.

Please pray for my pain and weakness to go away and to fend off the doubts. Especially because is at the worst I seem to be bombarded with doubtful thoughts. I am so upset and ashamed of myself to doubt again and again.. I may have mixed up day 2 and 3.. I am not sure it has been horrible..

[John81]

While it may be only a little comfort, please do take comfort in the fact you are not alone. Everyone goes thought times like this in their Christian life, some of us experience such several times.

God will bring you through, just hold on with the faith you have, calling out to Him for help as best you can.

You are in my prayers...

[Nathaniel]

Thank you.

[farouk]

Nathaniel:

3 John verse 2 may be a help, (if you look it up!) You'll see that physical health and spiritual health are distinct things, according to the Apostle. Blessings.

[HappyChristian]

Praying, Nathaniel. Doubting is something we all do at one time or another. It is often a result of discouragement, which is itself often a result of pain and sickness. David encouraged himself in the Lord when things looked dark - families taken, friends blaming him - and that is what we need to do. Spend some time in scripture reading and prayer. The pain won't necessarily recede, but the doubts will. And always remember that, as God's child, you are loved by the Creator of the universe!

[farouk]

Nathaniel:

And remember: always make sure you read God's Word every day, feeding on it, prayerfully. Both when you 'feel' like it, and when you don't.

[Eedjsoulwinner]

Keep strong nathaniel!

[Nathaniel]

Thank you for your prayers, I am doing better with the doubting now; the sickness is getting better too. Praise the Lord for he is good and has used it for my good. :D

Edited July 24, 2011 by Nathaniel

[John81]

Thank you for your prayers, I am doing better with the doubting now; the sickness is getting better too. Praise the Lord for he is good and has used it for my good.

God is good! One day you will have this time to look back upon as an example of how God never fails us and never leaves us, but He always brings us out to His glory and honour.