Kienyui

God’s plan for me does not make sense at all. I do trust that His ways are higher than my ways. Grief and sadness linger around me. In my tears, i have hope, not only for this world but for eternity. Just as He comforted those in Scripture, He should offer me comfort. Be merciful to me, Lord, for I am in distress; my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and body with grief and pains. Hear my prayer, Lord, listen to my cry for help. do not be deaf to my weeping. My tears have been my food day since yesterday. I have medication but cannot take them because i do not have what to eat. where are you God? Please help me. If you are reading this, kindly pray for me.

When the lord shows a man mercy, he might be tempted to think that his neighbor is lazy. There are people who fasted for days without hearing or encountering God while some were eating when Jesus visited them. It is not that fasting does not work, it is just that there is election by mercy. When a man says lord have mercy upon me, must people think that he has committed a sin. What they failed to understand is that the mercy of God is deeper than forgiveness. Forgiveness is after an offense while mercy is a gift. A gift is useful to even them that have been forgiven. Psalm 102:13 Thou shalt arise, and have mercy upon Zion: for the time to favour her, yea, the set time, is come. In the arena of favor, mercy is a gate pass. Blind Bartimaeus cried to Jesus saying “son of David have mercy upon me” and Jesus replied “ what do you want me to do for you? Man is but man. Even the best of man is still man. It is by his mercy that we are not consumed. My prayer point is “oh lord show me mercy”. The lord have mercy on me. You may not like me but fear my God(my father). Remember I am not fatherless. In 1 samuel 2 the Bible says the lord killeth and he maketh his life. If Joseph went to the pit and Jesus to the cross, why not me but why me? Dear lord my life and future are at the mercy of my tongue. Curses are incurred and blessings are pronounced by words. Salvation are obtained by the confession of words. Our destiny on earth are tongue controlled. Words are your equipments and instructions for creation. As I speak, I am creating. The Bible is replete to scriptures that says “God Said and God saw” as I say it without seeing it, I will see it after saying it. Father in the realm of the spirit, what is not declared is not delivered. A closed mouth is a closed destiny. My life is in my mouth. Father bless me. . Help me through suffering, hardship, homelessness and hunger. Have mercy on me. Amen I refused rejection. I know God is preparing something big for me

Am I feeling sorry for myself, or hoping for pity from others? Absolutely not; I consider it an honor to follow the path the Lord has prepared for me. It is a great honor to be treated as Jesus and the prophets were treated. I have been accused many times of things I haven’t done. I remain faithful to the Lord Jesus and offer myself, a living sacrifice, that the truth of His gospel may abound, and that false doctrines and speculations and every lofty thing might be destroyed. I don’t have the luxury of telling people what they want to hear; I will keep speaking the truth. I am allowed to follow this man and that man, or this doctrine and that doctrine; I am led to follow Jesus. And this I have done, and for this I am regarded by many as an outcast, unfit to be accepted. The times of the restoration of all things is at hand, I press forward, endeavoring to snatch from the fire those who have been deceived to lift themselves up to God’s level, those who claim to be equal to Christ in their authority, those who hold fast to doctrines of men, and even those who have unjustly mistreated me. I am a child of the Son of God, separated by Him, ordained by Him, and commissioned by Him. I will not betray Him. I will continue worshipping him, regardless of what might befall me. Help me lord

I self examine my life for a long time and have decided to do this confession and prayer. I have and I am suffering alot and after Easter, I got the conviction I must to this. Please join me is prayer. I HAVE EVER?: 1. Read or followed horoscopes. 2. Consulted spiritualist. 3. Sought healing through magic conjuration and charming, through a spiritualist. 4. Read spiritual literature such as books on interpretation of dreams, metaphysics, Mormonism, Jehovah’s Witness, religious cults, self-realisation, fortune telling. Which may have broken God's commandment and invokes God’s curse: Exodus 20:3-5, Exodus 22:18 Zechariah 10:2 Deut 18:9-12 Malachi 3:5, Leviticus 19:26-31 20:6-27 Acts 8:9-13, 16:16-18 1 Chronicles 10:13-14 Isaiah 8:19 Galatians 5:16-21 Jeremiah 27:9-10 Revelation 21:8, 22:14-15 Prayer Heavenly Father, I pray to You in the name of Your Son, Jesus Christ, and by the power of Your Holy Spirit. Lord Jesus Christ, I believe You are the Son of God and the only way to God and that You died on the cross for my sins and rose again so that I might be forgiven and receive eternal life. Lord Jesus, I renounce all pride, religious self-righteousness and all rebellion that comes from Satan. Heavenly Father, I have no claim on Your mercy except that Jesus died in my place. I confess all my sins before You, my Heavenly Father. Lord Jesus, I hold nothing back- I especially repent of my own involvement in the following the areas above and those i cannot remember I repent of all my sins. I turn completely away from them and I turn to You, Lord for mercy and forgiveness. I sever all contact I have ever had with the occult, and or with all false religion. My plea is the Blood Jesus. Father, i repent on behalf of my generational bloodline back to Adam for all pride, religious self-righteousness and all rebellion that comes from Satan. I repent on behalf of my ancestors for their involvement in Freemasonry, Divination, Occult, Incest …. and their involvement in any of the occult activities which I have just read through listed above. Lord Jesus Christ, I ask for mercy and forgiveness. I sever all contact that my ancestors have ever had with the occult or with all false religion. I renounce every one of these activities known and unknown that were participated by my family and release the Blood of Jesus to nullify them. Lord Jesus, by a decision of my will I now freely choose to forgive all who have ever harmed or wronged me, there is no debt, Jesus paid this in full. Dear God, I know I am a sinner and I ask for Your forgiveness. I believe that Jesus Christ is Your Son. I believe He died for my sins and that You raised Him to life. I want Him to come into my heart and to take control of my life. I want to trust Jesus as my Savior and follow Him as my Lord from this day forward. In Jesus' Name, amen."

One love, one faith, one Baptism Eph 4:5

Bodiless heads litters major junctions in my community today. #stopthesenselesswar#

Ruth 1-20-21

Just like blind Bartimaeus cried to Jesus(son of David, have mercy on me), I cry to the lord. Let his divine favour locate me. Just like the ark of covenant, I believe I am sited on it right now. Let him not use the rod on me. Let him not apply the law on be but with the hand of prayers, I ask for mercy I am tired of lamenting each day. Love and prayers Muh Plavious Kienyui

When was there a time when you were physically hurt? How did you persevere with pain? Have you ever been hurt emotionally? How did you process it? Have you ever experienced rejection, frustration and hopelessness? Can too much pain make a man not to have election for more than a year? When was the last time you were angry with God? What helped you get past it? Or have you not. How has hope strengthened your walk? In Romans 5:1-5 Paul talks about suffering, perseverance, character, and hope. Why is it important to travel this road? What is your hope? Have you face hunger too? Can you steal just to quench you hunger? Can suicide relief a pain? Is so much pain punishment from God?

I had a meal today. It been a while.

Thank you, thank you again @BrotherTony. Thank you to everyone praying for us. Sometimes we just need a hug to shed a little tears of love and get released from some pains. Permit me shed more light on my story. I am Muh Plavious Kienyui, born in a Muslim family. My father was a Muslim leader, Alhaji Arouna. He gave his life to Christ after he came into contact with a white missionary and Engineer, Plavious. Months later I was born and he named me Plavious as a remembrance of his friend. A few years later, my both parents were brutally killed. I became an abominable child as harboring a child child was a curse to my Muslim family. I became a street child. I sell plastic water at bus stop to feed and to pay my school fee. I knew that after school, I will be able to pick a job and helpself. Later in 2016, the Anglophone crisis started and I butchered on the leg, stomach, on the hand and head. I was helpless for year, unable to walk. Unable to access adequate medical treatment. Some people will give me food, other will give me money and some. Miraculously, I saw my wounds healing and getting better. Later in 2018, I made an attempt to trek to Europe through the Mediterranean Sea but failed. Last year after so much suffering and pains, I also attempted but couldn't because of my health. I then move to Yaounde, where I am presently. My primary arm of coming online was the hope of meeting engineer Plavious. I thought he will be in one of the forums, he will recognize me. Unfortunately my father was not literate. He had left no information about his friend. I have been banned from all the forums after asking for assistance except here. I understand it is the forums policy and I went against it. I was too desperate and unleashed my frustration and desperation in the forums. Guide me in your truth and teach me, for you are God my Savior, and my hope is in you all day long( Micah 7:7). If you think you understand me, I myself I am confused about my life. Sometimes I don't even understand anything. Sometimes I just have to sit on a branch of a tree, run some tears and walk away. if you are angry at me for asking for help lately, forgive me. I have come to understand that it is not by writing all over the internet that my situation can change. I now understand that my efforts cannot change my situation. I now understand that God knows why i am going through this. Another apology for the accusation I made. The government wanted my head because I wrote and went to the American embassy in Yaounde asking for help. The embassy wrote to the national security to look into my situation but instead they arrested me, torture me, and locked me up for exposing the inhuman treatment of Anglophone in Cameroon.

I encourage everyone to read and this will guide you understand better and pray for me. https://www.chrda.org/206-villages-raided-and-partially-or-severely-burnt-in-the-anglophone-regions-of-cameroon-since-2016/

One thing I will also love to clarify is that my case is not because of my faith but ongoing Anglophone crisis. Remember schools are locked, churches closed down, courts locks, no mark even the mosques are closed. No gathering. I Be it Christians or Muslims we suffer same. https://www.amnesty.org/en/latest/news/2023/07/cameroon-rampant-atrocities-amid-anglophone-regions-must-be-stopped/ No sir what you said is absolutely correct. Secondly, my English may not be very good. I may have use some misleading words. Cameroon is more of a French than English Sorry if you see it that way @Disciple.Luke. I will gladly talk inbox if you don't mind

@BrotherTony and @Disciple.Luke, when you rebuke someone, it is not hatred but love. I you didn't care about me, you will not waste you precious time and energy advising, rebuking and encouraging me. I am not proud of any wrong doing, i am not in any way defending a wrong doing but i believe he will have mercy on me and help me overcome whatever situation i found myself. The Bible tells us that the earth is God's (Exodus 19:5. I(Plavious), all animals and every other thing on earth belong to God(Psalm 24:1). Everything on earth and in heaven is his(1 chronicles 29:11). Here at the native doctor's shrine, I have taken all form of concoctions including fresh heart of a cat. He has buried many other in my body through incisions. Special egg broken on my head. I have drank blood of different animals. All those things were created by God. Each time it is being done, I pray in my heart and cancel all evil in God's creation given to me. I rather stay here than go around begging. If those things can treat me, there is no need leaving. If I keep insisting you help me, everyone will keep criticizing and yet no one will be willing to help. The native doctor was created by God, all he owns is God's. I give glory to God in all. The only different is that I cannot pray openly here. I pray in my heart. Since I came here, I feel better. You will notice for two weeks or more, I don't complain again. Instead focus not on my wrong. Kindly pray for me please Kienyui

Father destroy the work of the devil and safe me. Send a divine helper to see me through.

I have tried not to think of God's absence I can't stand it. I have tried to deepen myself in his world but quite often I can't hold but feeling lonely, abandoned and rejected

My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish? My God, I cry out by day, but you do not answer, by night, but I find no rest. I feel despised and rejected, abused and slandered, misunderstood and forgotten. I have been wondering why God seems to be doing nothing to protect and defend me. Does Jesus knows what i feel?

Every human being existing on the planet earth is either a slave to sin or to righteousness. There's absolutely nobody who can claim not to be a slave to any of these two and there's absolutely nobody who can serve the two at the same time. When you're a slave to sin, you cannot be a slave to righteousness as well. You only submit to one. However, my desire is that each and everyone flees from every form of slavery to sin. Why must we flee from every form of slavery to sin? 1. Because slavery to sin is a direct contradiction to righteous living. 2. Because it brings shame. 3. Because it leads to dead. In concluding his, the only thing that can bring shame in the believer's life is sin. And if we must live without guilts as God's children, then we must denounce and flee from all forms of slavery to sin. Amen!

It has been so difficult to get someone understand me? Sometimes it is difficult convincing myself that my situation has deterorated to this level. I have noticed that the only person that understands me better is myself. And then, I actually have trouble understanding myself! For some time, i have noticed there is a way to making others understand, not just myself. I can pray for them. I can unleash the power of the Blessed Holy Spirit to convict and to work on them. But when i pray. For the same Holy Spirit may change my heart and will. But after all, isn’t God’s will what we all really want in life? It’s not about me, us or our kids, or our spouse, it’s about God. Pray the Lord’s Prayer, and really mean it: “… Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.” Matthew 6:10

O Christ, in the midst of darkness and despair, may i be sustained by your light and life. Grant that your saving power inspire everyone to create hope and opportunity for us who live in crisis hunger and poverty. That some listen to us with a generous heart and help us to live one day at a time Amen.

I repeat. I have not had help in any form. Give a little account was set up for me but people were reluctant to contribute. 122 New Zealand dollars was contributed but this individual was unable to send help from New Zealand to Cameroon. It will be better you find out why one cannot send money from New Zealand to Cameroon. I maybe suffering but not an ingrate. Not a lier, I differ with you there. God is the creator of heaven and the earth with everything in it. I have eaten charms at the native doctor's shrine but before taking it, I usually pray and tell my father that I am his child and he owns everything including the native doctor abd his shrine. Let everything I take be nutrients to his temple, my body. I will continue to stay here till I am secure to leave. I cannot leave to go and die of hunger and starvation. Here I have a home, I eat and I am in a safer place. I don't hope to leave soon. Even if you don't agree, christ brought me here to give me home and shelter

Good is the creator of our lives. He sees and knows what we do day and night. It is not by my making but the spirit of the lord that I am what I am what I am today. It doesn't matter who am for it It not by might nor by power. God God use the foolish things to confound the wish. If I am christian or not, I have to survive. I need to stay alive. I am not sending personal messages to individuals again. I have been doing this for years. I have not had help of any form. One thing is sure. I may have compromise my faith, my belief, my relationship with God. May God understand why I did or God was aware I will do this at some point to stay alive. I know and I am very sure one day, the holy ghost shall come upon me and mountains shall me made low, dry bone will be fruitful and crooked shall be made straight. I don't regret staying at the native doctor shrine at moment. I do pray to my God and he is making ways for me. As for other questions, I rather talk about myself and nothing about the crisis in my country or it impact on my life. When the appointed time will come, God will raise people from all parts of the world to take me out of here. For the mean time, I have stopped asking, begging and lamentation. I will wait on the lord. For any person praying for me, the lord bless you. Know that I am at the wrong place but I still remember and exalt the most powerful and the owner of my life.

In my life, everything is a battle. Every breath is a battle, food is a battle, accommodation is a battle, health is a battle. either to win or die. We have gotten to a point where we no longer care who us right. What matters is the person that is left. We who have seen war, never stop seeing it. It wake us in the morning and help us to sleep. We see human but no humanity. Classified under world most neglected crisis. All we can remember now, all we can talk about now is war abd death. Will this ever end?

A virgin will be sacrifice here tomorrow night. I need wisdom and grace to save her. She is about 14. Kidnapped and brought to this shrine this evening by a business man. She will be fed with special food to prepare her for the sacrifice tomorrow. This could have been my assignment here