I really think although I love God, yet I also hate Him for giving such a strong desire to me yet saying NO to it, every time I plead for an answer in Jesus’ Name. Because this request mean so much to me I now don’t know if I can ask of God anything as for intercession for others stopped about 10 days ago because I feel if I pray for others God will punish them.
I think now I even hate God more than I love Him. I once was a Theophilus, but now am quickly becoming a misotheism. Perhaps I happen to be one of the three bad ground the seed/word fell on.