Been talking to a person, who was taken me step by step, looking at verses from the Torah. What I have learned is that you need a blood covering "atonement" to get your sins forgiven. Doing good deeds, ect is not the way. Looked at many verses ( Leviticus, the story of Abraham & Isacc, Passover) in which the talks about that you need the Blood. Also looked at verses which talk about Prophacies of the Messiah. and that you need Faith to be counted for Righteousness. Looked at verses in Hebrews which ( was amazing) as it talked about all the people from the Old Testament which had "Faith". My main stubling block is dealing with my family, ect. Any suggestions will be greatly appreciated. Like to thank all of you on this Forum for being so helpful and understanding.