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And when they came to Marah, they could not drink of the waters of Marah, for they were bitter: therefore the name of it was called Marah.
I grew up in a godly family, my dad was a deacon who you would see studying his Bible every single day, the wisest man I knew, he didn't take the pastor's word for it, he researched everything in the Bible personally, he was kind, caring, and loved the Lord greatly. My mother was a prayer warrior, when she prayed, the Lord listened to her prayers, and it was made obvious to anyone who was watching.
Hebrews 12:15 Looking diligently lest any man fail of the grace of God; lest any root of bitterness springing up trouble you, and thereby many be defiled;
A man was made pastor of the church my family attended, he preached that prayer doesn't work, because it has never worked for him, he taught that the Bible was not meant for today, he also lead my brother to rebel, telling him it was alright. My dad being the deacon tried to get rid of this pastor, as his doctrine and teachings were not sound, the church kept the pastor and got rid of my dad and my family, causing a church split.
My family was deeply hurt, us children had grown up there, it was my mom's brother who had started that church. I believe it was there that the seed of bitterness was planted within ALL of our hearts. I was to young to quite understand what had happened.
We have a principle that we follow in RU ( Reformer's Unanimous)
Our sinful habits hurt those who follow us.
The experience did not make me bitter, I did not really know what was happening, what brought my own personal bitterness on was the church jumping over the years, never staying in one place long. My parent's would find something wrong with the church and leave. I could hear the way they talked about the churches, the tone in their voice, and now that I'm older I realize, there wasn't something wrong with those churches, there was something wrong with us. Hearing the way they bad mouthed the different churches, affected me, and soon I was bad mouthing them, and a root of bitterness began to grow in my own heart ( Please understand, I am not blaming my parents, my actions were my own, and I take full blame and responsibility of them).
Repent therefore of this thy wickedness, and pray God, if perhaps the thought of thine heart may be forgiven thee.
23 For I perceive that thou art in the gall of bitterness, and in the bond of iniquity.
24 Then answered Simon, and said, Pray ye to the Lord for me, that none of these things which ye have spoken come upon me.
I trusted Christ as my Saviour in 2009, at 19 years old, God worked on my heart as I grew, and he showed me my bitterness and anger, and pointed out the root that had sprung in my heart, the tree that had grown, and the wicked fruit that it had produced.
Psalm 10:17 LORD, thou hast heard the desire of the humble: thou wilt prepare their heart, thou wilt cause thine ear to hear: I humbled myself before the Lord and he heard my cry and has given grace, he has rooted out the bitter root in my heart, he has shown me how easy it is to get the root of bitterness, so subtle at first, but eventually growing into a tree, and bearing rotten fruit. He has caused me to be aware of the dangerous of this little seed. So subtle it is that most cannot see it.
Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice:
It's sad for me to say but, my parents, they are out of church, and failing in the biggest spiritual battle we have ever had. The Bible collects dust, The Lord's name is rarely spoken. The atmosphere is heavy, the arguing is constant. The bitterness is thick in their voice and words. I believe my mom's mental breakdown is because we have failed in our spiritual lives, and we have drawn away from God.
There are blessings to these trials.... I have been reading my Bible more, praying more, attending church more. And it is all due to these things.
We must be more aware of the dangerous of this bitter seed and uproot it before it begins to grow.